Hospital Visit, Mixed Results, Weary But Still Breathing!

I ended up going to the ER tonight. The pain has been so bad, I haven't been able to sleep. The medicine the other doctor gave me didn't help, and I three different reactions to it, so I'm not going to take anymore of it.

I went in at 8 or 9pm, and wasn't released until 4am. They didn't give me pain meds until 3:30am, and I had to suffer through a renal ultrasound without it. It hurt SO bad! But pain in life makes you stronger, and I took it as well as I could.

The doctor said she couldn't find any blockage, no excess or urine buildup, so they think it could still be a kidney stone, but they're not entirely sure. My mom found out, unfortunately, that the acid reducer I've been taking can also cause kidney problems, and I'm really hoping that isn't the case. I have a hiatal hernia, and severe stomach acid that, if I don't take an acid reducer, I get very sick. I'm going to not take it tonight and see how I feel later on.

Only time is going to tell what this is and what might happen, but I will keep you posted.

Most people, when I tell them my medical history, think I deserve all kinds of medals, but I don't. I may have a hiatal hernia, an incomplete bundle branch block in my heart, stomach acid problems, IBS, a panic and anxiety disorder, along with an irregular cycle, prone to ovarian cysts, short term memory loss, and night blindness, but there are people in worse shape than I am.

There's a girl in a group I'm part of on Facebook who battles sepsis almost twice a month. Her veins are collapsing because of overuse of IV's, she's wheelchair bound, has a frozen GI tract which means she can only be fed with IV nutrients, and probably other disorders I know nothing about, but every day, she keeps a smile on her face, a positive attitude, and her spirit flies high. She loves to cosplay, and loves spending weekends at anime conventions. She deserves a medal. As does every parent who has ever lost a child to cancer, tumors, or having been stillborn. I'm just a human being trying to live, and help people see the beauty of the world so they can feel at ease, at peace, and not have anything to fear.

I just keep telling myself, that one day, this will all pass, and I'll be able to see the sun in the horizon.

For now, I'll bathe in the moonlight and continue as I have. No matter these symptoms, the pain, the strange symptoms, the reactions, I'm going to fight.

I'm going to continue.

It's my purpose in life.

I know it, and I'm honored to do it.

My love to all of you.

Thank you, for your support.