Trials, Tribulations, and Hope

Today has been a day of trials and tribu-bleeding-lations. Let's just get that portion out of that. Two of my beloved cats died today; Itty Bitty Kitty (who I will attach a picture of) and a newborn kitten that I loved because of her coloring (white with black spots). They both died of the same upper respiratory infection, and it hurts my heart because there was nothing I could do. Antibiotics were ineffective, and I had to watch them slip away. It hurts my heart. I also lost access to the Netflix account I was part of because the friend that went down for 15+ years let it expire. I know there isn't much he could do, but I had a whole list and I forgot to write it down!

On the upside, I went to see the doctor and I am now on Ambien to try and treat the PGAD/PSAS. It has helped so far, but last night it peaked and I had to take a nausea to make it subside enough for me to sleep. I have decided to change the time of taking it to when I sleep to see if it can counteract the condition. I am hopeful that it won't peak during the day, but again, this is only a trial and if it doesn't work, I'm hoping there are other medications that can help treat it. He seemed hopeful enough.

He did a full examination, and it seems I have some classic symptoms in common with others who suffer, and I will be going in for an MRI to see if I have Tarlov cysts (cysts on the spine). If I do, he will prescribe a course of treatment and I may be cured. If it's purely a chemical imbalance, there are other remedies. So either way, I have hope ^__^

I keep trying to tell people that I am not an outgoing person. I was invited to go to a car show today, but truth be told, I'm not a classic car fan, and I don't do crowds or bright sunshine. People don't understand that with empaths, there is a certain amount of sensory overload that can happen, and we tend to panic or become very uncomfortable. I have never liked crowds, and the only time I feel comfortable is when I go to the State Fair, and then I can only be in the buildings. The outside atmosphere is too much to handle. Today I will catch up on my sewing and make a video to post. It's going to feature my sweet puppy and the time she bitched out the neighbor dog XD

I'll be sure to post the link in the next blog.

But tonight, I rest, transcend the world with my Crow, and send my love to my babies on the Rainbow Bridge.