Changes are coming, and as much as I would love to post, "so you better be ready", and mean it for you guys, it's actually meant for me. So much is coming at once, and even though it's a little bit to handle, I'm doing my best to keep going along with what the universe has decided to throw at me. No matter how much kicking and screaming I do, no matter how many times I cry an protest, there's no stopping what's happening. I just have to shift the best I can, and know it will be over soon.
My parents are going out of town for a week, and I remember what happened the last time. I was so paranoid every second of the night it made sleeping difficult. I was also very lonely. As much as I d like my space, quiet, comfort, and ease, I like it when there are at least other people around. It makes me feel safer. The last time they left, some asshole pounded on my front door and ran off, prompting a naked in the bath me to call the police because I didn't know if they were outside still. If that happens again, I swear to fuck I will go outside and throat punch someone. You do NOT pound on someone's door at 11pm, when they're home alone, just to get a sick thrill. If that's the case, go to counseling... for everyone's sake. I'm looking forward to the quiet, but it's also a chance to vlog without someone yelling at animals, someone asking me every 15 minutes for a favor, and I'll be able to go hang out at places without someone messaging me and asking, "when are you coming home?". That gets annoying fast. I plan on having a bonfire, cleaning, sleeping, and just relaxing in a hot bubble bath with a good book.
The bad thing to all this is, I've gained some weight. It may not be noticeable to others but it damn well is to me, and I do not like it.
I can visibly see a double chin, I feel constantly bloated, and uncomfortable in what I use to love to wear. I have decided to only eat meat once a day (and it will be chicken), to drop soda, sweet teas, and stick with hot tea no sugar, and water. Snacks will all be healthy, and I WILL get back into Yoga. It helped a lot the first time, so there isn't a reason it can't now. I've been lax, lazy, and I need to kick my own ass. Technically, every time I look in the mirror I do. So... GO ME!
There's also a lot of tension around town because of a certain case, but I won't speak it here. If you know which one I mean, please, keep it to yourself, and know that just because of where I live that means I might know all or have an opinion. I think all of it is being blown to an epic proportion, and everyone needs to back off the race baiting. Racism is what caused the Race Riots, and we do NOT need to go back down that road. Too many lives were lost on both sides, and families were torn apart. We don't need bloodshed. We need to stick together and have some common decency. Also, politicians, political speakers, and everyone else need to stay home and stop making it worse. The media needs to stop blowing it up and exposing everything, and let the justice system work. I have a feeling it's going to get very bad, and if it does, know that I will not take part in either side. It's a shame people from this town are acting this way, but this is what happens when you forget the past. You repeat it. Every. Single. Time.
My stomach is nauseated, and I'm exhausted. I'm going to bed and, hopefully, escaping to somewhere better than this. I can't stand the hypocrisy, the race baiting, the racism, the hatred, or the division. It needs to stop, and they all need to go home. The time for unification is now, not later.
Let that sink in.
Please.
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